I’m not responsible for everyone’s emotions… and I don’t know when I’m going to stop forgetting that after I relearn it over and over again… Man…I’m just tired of feeling guilty for my feelings and for everyone else’s, and I’m tired of acting out of guilt trying to redeem myself somehow. Why this anxiety? Why this guilt for feeling anxious? When will the cycle be broken?
Your grace is all I need. I just need to be continuously reminded that you don’t require anything of me to earn your grace. I’m so freaking forgetful LOL what the heck.. GOD, please take care of this control freak who loves to believe that she can keep things calm and peaceful if she just tries to cater to everyone’s emotional needs. This pride though. Who do I think I am -_- sdjfkl