Yoully Kang.
20. Feel-it-all. Confused Cares. Enjoy colors. Remain. John 15.
"I am happy when I eat fresh fruit, when I burst out laughing, when I discover a new song, when I finish a good book, when I wake up and feel relaxed. I’m glad to have friends, family, a home, food when I’m hungry, hot water when I shower. I love being able to live and see the seasons change, to have gifts at Christmas and at my birthday, to travel sometimes, to have a good education and a great access to culture. I’m flattered when people compliment me, when people smile at me, when people are polite to me. There are so many things that make life so simple and easy and I will always think about them more than all the bad things that will happen to me. I do not have time to be sad every day and ungrateful; I have every reason in the world to be happy.”

A few reasons why I’ll always prefer living by elsablt (via thelittleyellowdiary)

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(via fraeuleinsolsken)

Hm…Interesting recurring theme of the week: Black and White

  • A recent decision I’ve made made me think. I’m shooting from one extreme to the other, but! I’m not too worried because entropy will surely counter my efforts. I AM still wary though because caring ones are warning me in advance. In any case, neutrals can’t do their thing without the contrasts. If I’m too far on one side of the spectrum, I must incline towards the furthest distance , so that I can at least reach somewhere closer to the middle. It’ll be a seesaw, but the balance is worth striving for~ 
  • I’m a gray person. Sooooooo I don’t like to box things into two categories. Even in abnormal psychology, though the terms normal and abnormal are two, they need each other to make sense. Maybe it’s my interest in the art of understanding human-science issues that makes me more inclined to be neutral and want to be open-minded about both sides, but I like to keep things more fuzzy. I think it makes it easier to understand others! Everyone is different though. Definitely, quite a few friends dear to me see the world through black-and-white lenses. Honestly sometimes it can be frustrating or hurtful that they don’t try to understand… It seems that the natural thing for them to do is to have their own opinion about every situation before they seek to know it more holistically. It may come off as judgmental or just plain ignorant. But lately, I’ve been reminded that I really need these kinds of people in my life… I realize that they may not give me understanding in the way that I want it, but they love me in the way that I need it. (And if I understand that I need it, won’t I want it? hehe). There is a time for everything. A time to understand. But also a time to know when to judge when something is right or wrong. Even though the “wrong” may be understandable, some things need to be clear-cut. If they aren’t, maybe I need to cut it clear. I can see that my friends who can see things black-and-white help me to do this:)
  • Need for more boundaries. Less Maybes. More Yes and No’s, please.

"Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.”
The Little Prince  (via laurenarlene)
"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”
J.R.R. Tolkien  (via wanderers-haven)
"Your feelings are valid simply because you feel them.”
Anonymous (via aleungfung)

Again and again and again and again.

I’m not responsible for everyone’s emotions… and I don’t know when I’m going to stop forgetting that after I relearn it over and over again… Man…I’m just tired of feeling guilty for my feelings and for everyone else’s, and I’m tired of acting out of guilt trying to redeem myself somehow. Why this anxiety? Why this guilt for feeling anxious? When will the cycle be broken? 

Your grace is all I need. I just need to be continuously reminded that you don’t require anything of me to earn your grace. I’m so freaking forgetful LOL what the heck.. GOD, please take care of this control freak who loves to believe that she can keep things calm and peaceful if she just tries to cater to everyone’s emotional needs. This pride though. Who do I think I am -_- sdjfkl